if i listen to joshua bell with no expectations, the experience is not going to be nearly as satisfying or pleasurable as if i listen to him and say to myself, my god, how lucky i am to be listening to joshua bell play live in front of me.

밑줄친 as~as 는 원급비교 같은데
그 뒤에 빨간색 if는 어떻게 해석해야할지 모르겠네요..문장 구조가 어떻게 될까요?